My mental health is not that great, i've spent the entire morning so far in bed but i at least managed to get dressed. Im at least not doing as bad as last night
I have been a bit stressed out due to reading too much of the news, but luckily I have very caring friends who helped calm me down. So the day turned out to be pretty good!
How are you?
Work wasn’t nearly as busy as I thought it’d be.
Unfortunately, with all the time I have before my shift tomorrow, I’ll probably have to mow if the weather’s good.
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I messed up my leg somehow and it’s not very fun to walk on so that kind of sucks other than that my day has been alright but this dysphoria hits like a truck and it sucks
I hit rock bottom last night, an ex came back into my life and I was spiraling over feeling responsible (in part, anyways) for how her life is going and also telling her all the bad stuff that's happened since she was in mine.
Today is better though, hitting rock bottoeans you start bouncing up. She has ownership over the shitshow that is her life, not me. My fault is being too good to bad people and letting their problems take precedence in my life.
And yeah things have been rough for me, but they're improving. I'm safe, healthy, going back to school and looking for a new job. I'm going to start working out again and dieting. I'm too pretty to look this bad, I've neglected myself for too long.
Day was passable, head ruined it. Kinda feels like I'm just killing time between counselling appointments each week really.
Anyway, thanks for doing the check ins. How was your day?
I'm trying to hang out with friends more often and be more social, especially to the two that I came out to. Coming out brought me closer to others, even to people I haven't come out to, which I didn't expect.
Sorry for the long comment, I have a lot on my mind… Maybe someone will read it?
It’s been a tough day. I’m still very much on the fence, questioning everything like crazy. I kinda like seeing myself as a woman, but I am a man.
Anyway, today my girlfriend and I both had therapy (separately), for which I had been longing for for three weeks since I had a complete breakdown (I thought my egg had cracked) beginning of June. Been distant and in my head ever since. My girlfriend bluntly asked me last week if I wanted to transition to which I said I didn’t know and that I was so confused..
Jump to today where I told my therapist that I was questioning (she was amazing) and afterwards told my gf that I will be seeking a therapist who is specialised in gender. She didn’t take it well and freaked out, saying she doesn’t want to be with a woman and that she just wants a normal life. That we wasted four years and that she regrets ignoring the signs for so long.
So right now I am back at square one. I’m a man right? Who am I kidding? Do I even want to be a woman, for real? I’m so lost…
If you made it this far thank you so much for reading, I didn’t feel very loved today, so it means a lot to me if someone hears me. (Also I wouldn’t mind anyone calling me a good girl… noone ever has so I’m not sure how it’ll make me feel)
It was fine but kinda confusing. In the morning I felt incredibly uncomfortable in my skin, but that luckily passed. Then I thought I was probably just cis, but now I feel like shit again for some reason.
How are you doing?
My mental health is not that great, i've spent the entire morning so far in bed but i at least managed to get dressed. Im at least not doing as bad as last night
I'm sorry to hear that Avery
My body has started gearing up for puberty round two. I've eaten five meals today and am about to have number six.
Nice
I’m thinking a lot about myself and who I am
Well I'll be here to talk about it if you need to
I have been a bit stressed out due to reading too much of the news, but luckily I have very caring friends who helped calm me down. So the day turned out to be pretty good! How are you?
I went to sleep early but yesterday was okay
Work wasn’t nearly as busy as I thought it’d be. Unfortunately, with all the time I have before my shift tomorrow, I’ll probably have to mow if the weather’s good. edit - formatting
Well I'm glad work isn't as bad as you thought it would be hopefully tomorrow isn't too bad
My hrt dosage got increased then about 10 minutes later I Almost became a car crash death statistic with the corner of a UPS truck
Are you okay?
Yeah lm just scared the crap outta me
Well I'm glad you're okay
I messed up my leg somehow and it’s not very fun to walk on so that kind of sucks other than that my day has been alright but this dysphoria hits like a truck and it sucks
That sucks I'm sorry to hear that
Doubting so bad right now I even feel bad posting here
I'm sorry to hear that 🫂
I hit rock bottom last night, an ex came back into my life and I was spiraling over feeling responsible (in part, anyways) for how her life is going and also telling her all the bad stuff that's happened since she was in mine. Today is better though, hitting rock bottoeans you start bouncing up. She has ownership over the shitshow that is her life, not me. My fault is being too good to bad people and letting their problems take precedence in my life. And yeah things have been rough for me, but they're improving. I'm safe, healthy, going back to school and looking for a new job. I'm going to start working out again and dieting. I'm too pretty to look this bad, I've neglected myself for too long.
Well I'm glad things are at least starting to improve in your life
Day was passable, head ruined it. Kinda feels like I'm just killing time between counselling appointments each week really. Anyway, thanks for doing the check ins. How was your day?
I went to sleep early but other than that my day was okay
I feel scattered and sleeping was really difficult.
I'm sorry to hear that Madeline
Thanks 🫂. How was your day?
Yesterday was pretty good
Glad to hear that 🫂
I'm trying to hang out with friends more often and be more social, especially to the two that I came out to. Coming out brought me closer to others, even to people I haven't come out to, which I didn't expect.
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Sorry for the long comment, I have a lot on my mind… Maybe someone will read it? It’s been a tough day. I’m still very much on the fence, questioning everything like crazy. I kinda like seeing myself as a woman, but I am a man. Anyway, today my girlfriend and I both had therapy (separately), for which I had been longing for for three weeks since I had a complete breakdown (I thought my egg had cracked) beginning of June. Been distant and in my head ever since. My girlfriend bluntly asked me last week if I wanted to transition to which I said I didn’t know and that I was so confused.. Jump to today where I told my therapist that I was questioning (she was amazing) and afterwards told my gf that I will be seeking a therapist who is specialised in gender. She didn’t take it well and freaked out, saying she doesn’t want to be with a woman and that she just wants a normal life. That we wasted four years and that she regrets ignoring the signs for so long. So right now I am back at square one. I’m a man right? Who am I kidding? Do I even want to be a woman, for real? I’m so lost… If you made it this far thank you so much for reading, I didn’t feel very loved today, so it means a lot to me if someone hears me. (Also I wouldn’t mind anyone calling me a good girl… noone ever has so I’m not sure how it’ll make me feel)
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Thank you 🫂
The Tea worked! im feeling better now.
Nice!
Eh. Been okay so far.
Well that's better than bad
Yeah. Just been boring so far.
urgh :( don't wanna talk, but i wish ya all a good time. :3
Understandable I'm sorry to hear your day wasn't the best hope it gets better
Honestly. Thank you a lot!
Dysphoric for no specific reason. I just want to go home and hide. And play Celeste or something. :/
I'm sorry to hear that
Have you seen the news?
It was fine but kinda confusing. In the morning I felt incredibly uncomfortable in my skin, but that luckily passed. Then I thought I was probably just cis, but now I feel like shit again for some reason. How are you doing?