I’m sorry. You have it pretty rough.
You definitely should talk to a therapist, which I am not. I understand that it can be scary, but a good therapist can help a lot.
I’d suggest slowly trying to take things one step at a time. You’ve already shown that this is something you feel strongly about. You made a decision to tell all of us that you’re a girl! That takes courage, even if it may feel otherwise. It’s a small step, but an important one. Continue trying to take small steps where you can. It doesn’t need to be in regards to being trans. Go for a walk, and smile at people who walk past. Try joining a discord of people with similar interests and experiences. You don’t need to talk to anyone yet, but put yourself in a situation where you can talk to them.
You don’t need to jump into the deep-end of social interaction or instantly transition. It’ll suck to take it slowly, but it’s much easier on you mentally. It’ll help build up your confidence. I believe you can do it, you know you want to try to be stronger.
But courage isn’t too different than a muscle, it’s something you need to exercise. It’ll take time and effort, but just move at your own pace.
And I’m sorry your family is transphobic. Eventually, you’ll have to deal with that, but just stay out of their way for now. They clearly aren’t good for you, and if it helps, you could probably blame them for most of your issues. Good parents don’t often give their children depression and intense social anxiety regardless of disabilities. If it helps you blame yourself less, blame them.
Finally, I’d suggest picking up some form of art. Music, writing, poetry, building in Minecraft, whatever works for you. It gives you something to focus on when things feel hopeless, and if you get good at it, it can become a source of confidence. Also, it should be something that you find fun, and that’s something everyone needs, especially as they struggle through depression.
Anyways, I believe in you. Things suck now, but you want them to get better. You’re reaching out to us. You have an idea of what you want. You *can* do this. And if you need help, we’re here for you.
Sounds like you should tell your dad to get fucked and do what you want. Listening to transphobic dicks like that only prolongs your suffering. Make the most of your life. Be you. And anyone who doesn't like that can kiss your ass.
*hugs*
Much love,
Jamie💕
I’m sorry. You have it pretty rough. You definitely should talk to a therapist, which I am not. I understand that it can be scary, but a good therapist can help a lot. I’d suggest slowly trying to take things one step at a time. You’ve already shown that this is something you feel strongly about. You made a decision to tell all of us that you’re a girl! That takes courage, even if it may feel otherwise. It’s a small step, but an important one. Continue trying to take small steps where you can. It doesn’t need to be in regards to being trans. Go for a walk, and smile at people who walk past. Try joining a discord of people with similar interests and experiences. You don’t need to talk to anyone yet, but put yourself in a situation where you can talk to them. You don’t need to jump into the deep-end of social interaction or instantly transition. It’ll suck to take it slowly, but it’s much easier on you mentally. It’ll help build up your confidence. I believe you can do it, you know you want to try to be stronger. But courage isn’t too different than a muscle, it’s something you need to exercise. It’ll take time and effort, but just move at your own pace. And I’m sorry your family is transphobic. Eventually, you’ll have to deal with that, but just stay out of their way for now. They clearly aren’t good for you, and if it helps, you could probably blame them for most of your issues. Good parents don’t often give their children depression and intense social anxiety regardless of disabilities. If it helps you blame yourself less, blame them. Finally, I’d suggest picking up some form of art. Music, writing, poetry, building in Minecraft, whatever works for you. It gives you something to focus on when things feel hopeless, and if you get good at it, it can become a source of confidence. Also, it should be something that you find fun, and that’s something everyone needs, especially as they struggle through depression. Anyways, I believe in you. Things suck now, but you want them to get better. You’re reaching out to us. You have an idea of what you want. You *can* do this. And if you need help, we’re here for you.
Sounds like you should tell your dad to get fucked and do what you want. Listening to transphobic dicks like that only prolongs your suffering. Make the most of your life. Be you. And anyone who doesn't like that can kiss your ass. *hugs* Much love, Jamie💕