I understand exactly how you feel. Strict, religious, old school upbringing has messed my head up quite a bit, and I feel sexually hyperactive and repressed at the same time now
I found this reddit by accident a few months back and it astounds me the stories I read are all similar to mine.(When I was young we didn't have help, we had shut the hell up and get to work) Everyone is different, but is there anyone at school you can talk to with confidence that they won't repeat what you say to anyone else? Good luck to you.
It must have been hard to write these words and I commend you for letting your feelings out. This is a safe space where you're not disgusting or weird.
that sounds fairly normal to be honest, just with some religious nutcase stuff mixed in. i think you'll be alright, there's no rush in sorting these things out.
First get therapy. What honestly helped make mine manageable was A. being honest with my partners about my hypersexuality and my CSA trauma. And when I've had emotional connections with my partners....as long as long term was sort of on the table. Once it went poly by function I kind of lost the help....
Sex alone is not the solution. There are lot of things you need fundamentally first. And even then....it may be tough at times to manage and why you need to be honest with your partners not only about your sexual needs but also your needs for affection and intimacy.
As an odd bit. Try the Praise Kink bits on youtube. I've made a lot of praise kink audios for my partners and they've found it really helpful at times. Not the sexual ones per se. A little spice is ok but sometimes you need the feeling of being loved and wanted.
I'm supposedly attractive to my partners but I feel like the big muscular fat guy in a NTR hentai. Self worth will be an issue you battle as well so try to address that if you can.
Welcome to the club...it sucks but sometimes you learn how to manage.
I understand exactly how you feel. Strict, religious, old school upbringing has messed my head up quite a bit, and I feel sexually hyperactive and repressed at the same time now
I found this reddit by accident a few months back and it astounds me the stories I read are all similar to mine.(When I was young we didn't have help, we had shut the hell up and get to work) Everyone is different, but is there anyone at school you can talk to with confidence that they won't repeat what you say to anyone else? Good luck to you.
I deal with many of the same issues. I always found some outlet to find gratification.
It must have been hard to write these words and I commend you for letting your feelings out. This is a safe space where you're not disgusting or weird.
you sound like a winner to me. you’ve just been shit on so to speak. have you tried vibrators? or more importantly, have you orgasmed?
i haven't achieved like an actual orgasm, i'm pretty sure. & nvr tried a vibrator.
How can you be sure of that?
that sounds fairly normal to be honest, just with some religious nutcase stuff mixed in. i think you'll be alright, there's no rush in sorting these things out.
and are being sh*t on by strict religion.
First get therapy. What honestly helped make mine manageable was A. being honest with my partners about my hypersexuality and my CSA trauma. And when I've had emotional connections with my partners....as long as long term was sort of on the table. Once it went poly by function I kind of lost the help.... Sex alone is not the solution. There are lot of things you need fundamentally first. And even then....it may be tough at times to manage and why you need to be honest with your partners not only about your sexual needs but also your needs for affection and intimacy. As an odd bit. Try the Praise Kink bits on youtube. I've made a lot of praise kink audios for my partners and they've found it really helpful at times. Not the sexual ones per se. A little spice is ok but sometimes you need the feeling of being loved and wanted. I'm supposedly attractive to my partners but I feel like the big muscular fat guy in a NTR hentai. Self worth will be an issue you battle as well so try to address that if you can. Welcome to the club...it sucks but sometimes you learn how to manage.