Breakup. Have to either get a job or go to school, no friends my life is just in a really big hole right now with no clear way to get out. I so badly want to just go to a cabin the woods and pause time and just sit there for a month to refresh my whole brain.
Honestly, just give yourself time to destress. Lay down, spend time with yourself, or others if that helps you more. Just do things that help you and make you happy. Even the smallest thing, like making your bed in the morning, is a good thing :)
I appreciate you. Ive had almost a month of trying to get to a point where I can improve my life but it’s all coming at me now. I’ve never felt so alone. I was with my girlfriend for 3.5 years we were each other first everything. Losing her so suddenly fucked up my head. The things I enjoyed before mean a lot less, the things I wanted to do don’t seem so important. I know everyone has breakups but we truly were going to be together forever. I just waited too long to get my shit together. And now I have no one, no friends nothing. And I have to get a job or find a career to commit my life to. And I’m out of time. Sorry for the dump of shit I just don’t have anyone to talk to so someone validating me talking is a new thing
Hey, my DMs are open whenever man. What matters is taking it one day at a time, and making sure that you see any small victories as big ones too. Like I said, you making your bed is a victory. Going for a walk to clear your head is a victory, and also very good for your mind and your body. Unfortunately you can't change the breakup having happened, but you can change how you take care of yourself after the fact. You can even come out a better person than before the breakup :)
Wellll, the past years of school have been tolling on me. I’m homeschooled, so I get no social interaction and just stare at a screen all day. It’s really lonely and boring.
I recently got abandoned by my two best friends, one of them telling me how to off myself after I told another friend how they were toxic. So basically my ‘friends’ were stalking me and seeing who I was having conversations with.
My only other friends have stopped talking to me unless I initiate the conversation.
I also recently started to show a lot of signs of ADHD and schizophrenia, which is just amazing. Exactly what I need right now.
I’m in pain all the time from past injuries, as my body takes much longer to heal than it should. I have to take like 6 pills a day just to be comfortable.
I don’t really eat anymore, just a small snack and then dinner. I don’t ever feel hungry. I’ve lost weight. Don’t have energy to do anything.
I have also been having very triggering nightmares, such as getting r*aped. I also had a nightmare that I was cutting myself last night.
Sorry this is long, haha. Just don’t have anyone to talk to.
I think one reason the internet is great is that you can get your social interaction there if you don't get much of it in real life. I don't get a whole lot of it myself, but on the internet I can easily interact with anyone literally anywhere within mere seconds. And so can you :) we're talking right now, aren't we?
Those friends weren't your friends in the first place, if they were stalking you like that, seeing who you were talking to, that's not healthy at all. They're the toxic ones. I'm really sorry to hear you lost them, but let me tell you, it was definitely for the better in the long run. Just because you don't have true friends now doesn't mean you never will :)
Those two diagnoses aren't things you can control, so you shouldn't have to worry about them :) there's no need to work yourself up over something you can't control. It's not a matter of whether or not it's true, it's a matter of whether it'll happen while you're worried, or if it'll happen while you're accepting. Obviously that really sucks to hear and that can decrease the quality of life and I'm really sorry to hear that :( but it's just a waste of energy to worry about all that. Take it all one day at a time, okay?
Pills really suck when you depend on them. But you're going strong now and you're still here :) I'm very proud of you.
It seems like you've had a really messed up upbringing, with all these nightmares and thoughts, and the bad eating habits. It's okay by the way, I'm here for you when nobody else is. My DMs are open for you, don't even worry about that :) if you feel comfortable, you can reach out to me there. I hope you're doing okay.
I think the internet is great too, although my mom doesn’t allow me to have social media, even though I’ve explained to her that actually talking to people for once makes me feel better and not completely alone.
Yeah, it’s just hard cause we were friends for about three years and talked everyday, until they just stopped talking to me overall. I really hope I get some friends soon, haha.
Yeah. It’s just scary y’know? I mean, the ADHD isn’t too bad, but the schizophrenia is the one I’m stressed about. I’ve seen how people act with it and I really don’t want to turn out that way and look like I’m losing my mind.
I don’t remember anything too horrible happening in my childhood, but I dunno haha. I’ve been insecure about my body for a while, but that doesn’t really explain why I haven’t been hungry at all.
Thank you so much, I appreciate it :)
I'm European so unfortunately having an AC here is unheard of. I really wish they were more commonplace. But then again they also contribute to global warming so maybe windows and fans are fine.
Pretty good, almost finished with the calculus book I have been reading. It's a difficult book but I managed to pull through most of it after almost a month.
Tired of this shit I got probably 14 exams in 4 days next week cause of a few days of suspended classes and holidays then after that I got long tests the week after so 13 exams, and we also have a lot of performance tasks to finish by then. Also we've had 6 day school weeks for like a month cause of 2 extra days just for practice, and the schedule is 7-4pm tuesday-friday, 7-3pm on saturdays, and 7-12pm on mondays. Only 2 weeks of school works left tho so almost done
Edit: my estimation was a bit off so it won't be 14 exams in 4 days more like 8-10
That's a lot of fucking work jesus. 14 exams in 4 days should honestly be illegal, I think 2 or 3 a day should be the max. Or at least spread them out more. It's so damn stressful.
Max is 3 a day usually but end of year is close so we gotta cram everything in and we got the list of tests next week and it won't actually reach 14 exams in 4 days probably 10 max
Edit: Exam week will be 4 long tests a day in 3 days tho with 1 day having 5 exams
This week so far was very tough for some reason. I am very exhausted mentally especially since I am at home idle for a long time now waiting for an exam. Feared, sad, depressed and somethings which I can't understand
I'm really sorry to hear :/ exams are rough. But you should be nicer to yourself too. You're doing more than you think you are. Making your bed in the morning for example, that's a victory. Going out for a walk to clear your mind, that's a victory. See every thing you do not just as a task done, but as a victory for yourself :)
Thank you. But even though I am stressed about the exam a bit, many other things are going on in my life which is making me more mentally tired. Anyways ur words made me feel good :)
I think I got played by this guy I really liked. I’m not sure tho as you can’t get the whole picture over text. I’m seeing him next week tho. Stressed that I’m being a burden to my best friend/chosen brother. He says I’m not and he’s always willing to listen (he actually sent a nice paragraph when I told him this) but I’m just scared of screwing it up or that I’m not being a good enough friend/lil sister to him. I also missed his call earlier and he didn’t pick back up and I know he’s having a bad day and I feel awful. And also life stress. Sorry that ended up being a lot
You're being too hard on yourself. You can't blame yourself for giving him a bad day when he already had one. If he needs you he'll talk to you when he can :) if people are hanging out with you, you are not a burden.
I may have worded it wrong those 2 convos were ok 2 different days. The one where I told him what was wrong was a day or 2 ago. Thank you tho :) I hope he’s feeling better is able to talk about it tomorrow. He’s usually very good with communication so when he’s not I know something’s up. As for the guy I like I won’t find out anything till this Sunday cause I’m supposed to hear from him. Then next Sunday I’ll be seeing him
Yeah I’m really excited but really nervous cause it could mean things go back to normal between us (we kinda quit talking after the last time I saw him which was weird but that’s a whole other story) or I realize it’s over. Thanks for letting me yap lol
Im just a little bothered
I wanna play Blade and sorcery but at the same time i wanna save my quests battery incase my friend randomly spawns and asks me if i wanna get on vr so now im just sitting here thinking
Not great. I haven't gotten any school done and its already 12:00. This happens every single day. There's too many distractions and I hate all my subjects in school.
i beg you help me i can't get off this sub i have a (revolutionary hehe) networking protocol i need to write down off my head but i keep getting distracted 😭
THE WHOLE DAY
Don't know, I've been feeling depressed for the last week, can't do anything, I've recently lost all the will to talk to other people, in fact, I stopped reaching out and replying to anybody, and idk, in general I feel bad and like I don't want to be an active part of this world anymore, I just want to live in a bubble all by myself with no one paying attention to me
Sometimes that's needed. Just remember to be nice to yourself. Something as small as making your bed in the morning is a goal :) and doing small things like that in the morning can also boost your confidence for the rest of the day.
Today was a wild day at school. My eye somehow got hit by a ball from the back, another ball someone got stuck on the ceiling, and one of my classmates taped the whole class
I'm actually pretty good right now. How are you doing?
I'm glad to hear :) I'm doing okay, tired too. Might make coffee
Gilmore girls
What
Lonely 😞
Sorry to hear :/ well, there are plenty of people here in the comments!
I really miss my ex
Did you guys end on bad terms?
Really bad terms…. She cheated on me then left me…. We had a big argument and a lot of things
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How come?
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Aw I'm sorry to hear :/ how does that affect you?
Rip
I’m very particular about things and I make sure I hit every crack on the sidewalk or every bump that sticks out
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Pretty much
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Nah it’s cool it’s not that bad I just like everything to be right
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True
You have organizational ocd?
I’m pretty disorganized but organized at the same time
It’s almost as if everything’s train tracks and you have to switch onto the right ones
Also fear of the unknown ig
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Aw I'm so sorry :( you can never know when it's too late which sucks.
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She was probably interested in that person since before then.
Aw that sucks you should still try on her tho
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Rip I mean at least he her friend
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Yeah that’s good
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True, you might like someone else pretty fast, you should just talk to her for now
Tired af but hanging in there
Same here. What time is it for ya?
Sleep procrastination is a beautiful thing, how are YOU doing today?
I'm doing okay! Just tired, might make coffee.
Heck yeah get some brown caffeine juice :D
Want me to make you some?
No that’s okay, I don’t drink coffee, just rot in bed ✨🙂↕️
What about tea?
I do enjoy a bit of tea
I'll get some brewin'. :)
Awww haha thank you
Been sick all day with a head ache, fatigue, cough and sore throat
No way, same here
Doing pretty good :) we chillin
Very glad to hear :)
content. ate too big a burger
That sounds awesome. I'm craving one of those.
Just finished a work it 2 hours that would normally take 3 days
Oh wow, good job! What was it?
Lecture on a subject only reason that it would last 3 days because of laziness
Lmaoo I'm still proud of ya.
Good hbu?
Doing alright. I'm tired, but I'm alright.
That’s good, same here
I scroll and then can’t stop because what if the thing under it is something I can’t miss
Sounds like you should go to a casino.
Fr
Not great but what else is new
I'm sorry to hear. What's on your mind?
Breakup. Have to either get a job or go to school, no friends my life is just in a really big hole right now with no clear way to get out. I so badly want to just go to a cabin the woods and pause time and just sit there for a month to refresh my whole brain.
Honestly, just give yourself time to destress. Lay down, spend time with yourself, or others if that helps you more. Just do things that help you and make you happy. Even the smallest thing, like making your bed in the morning, is a good thing :)
I appreciate you. Ive had almost a month of trying to get to a point where I can improve my life but it’s all coming at me now. I’ve never felt so alone. I was with my girlfriend for 3.5 years we were each other first everything. Losing her so suddenly fucked up my head. The things I enjoyed before mean a lot less, the things I wanted to do don’t seem so important. I know everyone has breakups but we truly were going to be together forever. I just waited too long to get my shit together. And now I have no one, no friends nothing. And I have to get a job or find a career to commit my life to. And I’m out of time. Sorry for the dump of shit I just don’t have anyone to talk to so someone validating me talking is a new thing
Hey, my DMs are open whenever man. What matters is taking it one day at a time, and making sure that you see any small victories as big ones too. Like I said, you making your bed is a victory. Going for a walk to clear your head is a victory, and also very good for your mind and your body. Unfortunately you can't change the breakup having happened, but you can change how you take care of yourself after the fact. You can even come out a better person than before the breakup :)
Gud
I just opened Reddit and I’m already being told to stop scrolling. Must be a sign to go to sleep 😂 I’m doing good btw
Lmao maybe you've done too much stuff on your phone beforehand.
I haven’t been okay for four years :( How are you doing?
Aw, how come?
Wellll, the past years of school have been tolling on me. I’m homeschooled, so I get no social interaction and just stare at a screen all day. It’s really lonely and boring. I recently got abandoned by my two best friends, one of them telling me how to off myself after I told another friend how they were toxic. So basically my ‘friends’ were stalking me and seeing who I was having conversations with. My only other friends have stopped talking to me unless I initiate the conversation. I also recently started to show a lot of signs of ADHD and schizophrenia, which is just amazing. Exactly what I need right now. I’m in pain all the time from past injuries, as my body takes much longer to heal than it should. I have to take like 6 pills a day just to be comfortable. I don’t really eat anymore, just a small snack and then dinner. I don’t ever feel hungry. I’ve lost weight. Don’t have energy to do anything. I have also been having very triggering nightmares, such as getting r*aped. I also had a nightmare that I was cutting myself last night. Sorry this is long, haha. Just don’t have anyone to talk to.
I think one reason the internet is great is that you can get your social interaction there if you don't get much of it in real life. I don't get a whole lot of it myself, but on the internet I can easily interact with anyone literally anywhere within mere seconds. And so can you :) we're talking right now, aren't we? Those friends weren't your friends in the first place, if they were stalking you like that, seeing who you were talking to, that's not healthy at all. They're the toxic ones. I'm really sorry to hear you lost them, but let me tell you, it was definitely for the better in the long run. Just because you don't have true friends now doesn't mean you never will :) Those two diagnoses aren't things you can control, so you shouldn't have to worry about them :) there's no need to work yourself up over something you can't control. It's not a matter of whether or not it's true, it's a matter of whether it'll happen while you're worried, or if it'll happen while you're accepting. Obviously that really sucks to hear and that can decrease the quality of life and I'm really sorry to hear that :( but it's just a waste of energy to worry about all that. Take it all one day at a time, okay? Pills really suck when you depend on them. But you're going strong now and you're still here :) I'm very proud of you. It seems like you've had a really messed up upbringing, with all these nightmares and thoughts, and the bad eating habits. It's okay by the way, I'm here for you when nobody else is. My DMs are open for you, don't even worry about that :) if you feel comfortable, you can reach out to me there. I hope you're doing okay.
I think the internet is great too, although my mom doesn’t allow me to have social media, even though I’ve explained to her that actually talking to people for once makes me feel better and not completely alone. Yeah, it’s just hard cause we were friends for about three years and talked everyday, until they just stopped talking to me overall. I really hope I get some friends soon, haha. Yeah. It’s just scary y’know? I mean, the ADHD isn’t too bad, but the schizophrenia is the one I’m stressed about. I’ve seen how people act with it and I really don’t want to turn out that way and look like I’m losing my mind. I don’t remember anything too horrible happening in my childhood, but I dunno haha. I’ve been insecure about my body for a while, but that doesn’t really explain why I haven’t been hungry at all. Thank you so much, I appreciate it :)
You should send me a DM, you seem pretty cool and I'm more than happy to talk more :)
Okay, thank you :)
I’m wearing comfy pjs
That sounds awesome :) I personally can't sleep with clothes on, it's too warm.
Rip rlly? :)
Yup yup. I always have a fan pointed at me too so like, I like the cold :v
Oh wow, same here, except not all the time, sometimes it’s freezing freezing cold, but I can still wear pjs
I like the air conditioning though and sitting in front of the air conditioner
I'm European so unfortunately having an AC here is unheard of. I really wish they were more commonplace. But then again they also contribute to global warming so maybe windows and fans are fine.
Oh wow that’s strange, it must get hot and humid in the summer, and true
Im in America
I also like drinking iced drinks
I don’t mind it
What would you wear then?
Oh, nothing at all.
Oh wow, do you feel insecure? Or too exposed
The pajamas are comfortable tbh, I don’t mind wearing them, I prefer it
Does it ever get too cold?
If it does I just close my window and/or turn my fan off.
True
Pretty bad, I got a lot of studying to do really lagging behind rn :( what about you?
I'm sorry to hear :/ I'm doing okay, thank you. I'm pretty tired, but I'm drinking coffee so that helps.
Nice, coffee really helps me aswell
Pretty good, almost finished with the calculus book I have been reading. It's a difficult book but I managed to pull through most of it after almost a month.
I'm glad I didn't have to worry much about calculus in school.
Well I like calculus, I'm a maths major so this is the 3rd calculus book I'm reading
Oh damn, you're on the grind huh? Power to you.
Tired of this shit I got probably 14 exams in 4 days next week cause of a few days of suspended classes and holidays then after that I got long tests the week after so 13 exams, and we also have a lot of performance tasks to finish by then. Also we've had 6 day school weeks for like a month cause of 2 extra days just for practice, and the schedule is 7-4pm tuesday-friday, 7-3pm on saturdays, and 7-12pm on mondays. Only 2 weeks of school works left tho so almost done Edit: my estimation was a bit off so it won't be 14 exams in 4 days more like 8-10
That's a lot of fucking work jesus. 14 exams in 4 days should honestly be illegal, I think 2 or 3 a day should be the max. Or at least spread them out more. It's so damn stressful.
Max is 3 a day usually but end of year is close so we gotta cram everything in and we got the list of tests next week and it won't actually reach 14 exams in 4 days probably 10 max Edit: Exam week will be 4 long tests a day in 3 days tho with 1 day having 5 exams
That's still really rough though. 4 and 5 tests a day, fuck that lmao.
It’s a mix of major and minor subjects so it’s rlly not that bad but i still get up at like 1am to study lmao especially for filipino and math
That's so rough lmao. I hope you're holding up okay.
It's fine lmao it is what it is
I'm alright, you?
I'm okay. I love the pfp, Terraria is my favorite game :)
Thank you, it's one of my favorites too! Actually goates game
How many hours do you have?
1101 + about 100 hours of tmodloader + god knows how many hours of mobile back in the day.
Goddamn, doing good there! You're an addict :)
I've been clean now for about a year or so.
Lmao I haven't played in a few months, I should start getting my hours up again.
What's fucked up is that I've played 1000 hours of terraria since 2017, so 7 years. But factorio I've had for only 3 years and I've played 770.
Drunk
If you are tired coffee helps
I'm drinking it right now!
I'm doing great, how about you?
I'm doing alrighty, thank you :) just drinking my coffee at the moment.
Cool
This week so far was very tough for some reason. I am very exhausted mentally especially since I am at home idle for a long time now waiting for an exam. Feared, sad, depressed and somethings which I can't understand
I'm really sorry to hear :/ exams are rough. But you should be nicer to yourself too. You're doing more than you think you are. Making your bed in the morning for example, that's a victory. Going out for a walk to clear your mind, that's a victory. See every thing you do not just as a task done, but as a victory for yourself :)
Thank you. But even though I am stressed about the exam a bit, many other things are going on in my life which is making me more mentally tired. Anyways ur words made me feel good :)
I'm here for you. My DMs are open :)
Not great tbh :( how are you?
Aw, I'm sorry to hear. How come?
I think I got played by this guy I really liked. I’m not sure tho as you can’t get the whole picture over text. I’m seeing him next week tho. Stressed that I’m being a burden to my best friend/chosen brother. He says I’m not and he’s always willing to listen (he actually sent a nice paragraph when I told him this) but I’m just scared of screwing it up or that I’m not being a good enough friend/lil sister to him. I also missed his call earlier and he didn’t pick back up and I know he’s having a bad day and I feel awful. And also life stress. Sorry that ended up being a lot
You're being too hard on yourself. You can't blame yourself for giving him a bad day when he already had one. If he needs you he'll talk to you when he can :) if people are hanging out with you, you are not a burden.
I may have worded it wrong those 2 convos were ok 2 different days. The one where I told him what was wrong was a day or 2 ago. Thank you tho :) I hope he’s feeling better is able to talk about it tomorrow. He’s usually very good with communication so when he’s not I know something’s up. As for the guy I like I won’t find out anything till this Sunday cause I’m supposed to hear from him. Then next Sunday I’ll be seeing him
Well at least you get to se him :))
Yeah I’m really excited but really nervous cause it could mean things go back to normal between us (we kinda quit talking after the last time I saw him which was weird but that’s a whole other story) or I realize it’s over. Thanks for letting me yap lol
No worries, my DMs are open whenevers :)
Thank you I appreciate it very much! I’m always open as well :)
i'm alright, im in a lesson rn not paying attention to anything but its whatever
Lmao that's relatable.
I'm not good tbh , but thank you for asking this question
I'm sorry to hear :/ how come?
Because I don't have friends in real life that hurts when I go out and see a lot people have friends and I don't 😓
Having online friends is just as valid as having them in real life :) it doesn't matter where they're from, but rather how they treat you.
But it's not a good idea to spend my whole day just talking to them with my phone Talking in real life to our friends is better
Nope. I broke my wrist, and my relationship status is the same as it has besn for the past 17 years
I'm sorry to hear, man :/
Yeah. Anyways hows ur day going
Very baf
Just woke up.
No but I’ll be ok 💪 wby
How come?
Alive and that's a big deal for me
Tired and terrible I’m on my way to school right now :(
I'm sorry to hear :/ it's a good thing school is temporary
So happy today is Friday though. That’s my only motivation, then I can go home and get lost in stardew valley
Sounds like a great time :)
I hope so I just got it last night and played it for about 30 minutes
Awful, but it is what it is
I'm sorry to hear :/ I'm here if you need someone to talk to.
Not well
I'm sorry to hear :( how come?
Depressed. My wife isn’t kind to me.
Your wife? How old are you?
Could be better ngl
I'm sorry to hear :/ how come?
My friends aren't here so I'm alone
Fuck it, I'll say. The boy I like is talking and to me:3
Im just a little bothered I wanna play Blade and sorcery but at the same time i wanna save my quests battery incase my friend randomly spawns and asks me if i wanna get on vr so now im just sitting here thinking
Not great. I haven't gotten any school done and its already 12:00. This happens every single day. There's too many distractions and I hate all my subjects in school.
School is so difficult at times :( but it's also important to give yourself breaks. If It's 12 AM, call it a day and go to bed.
Emotionless, just existing
I know that feeling. Would you like to talk about it?
Suicidal
Your assessment is correct, I'm somewhat tired
Why's that?
Didn't sleep, did an all nighter
Oh all nighters suck, why'd you do that?
Cant fall asleep
i beg you help me i can't get off this sub i have a (revolutionary hehe) networking protocol i need to write down off my head but i keep getting distracted 😭 THE WHOLE DAY
What makes it revolutionary?
its minimalism
Bad
Aw, how come?
Don't know, I've been feeling depressed for the last week, can't do anything, I've recently lost all the will to talk to other people, in fact, I stopped reaching out and replying to anybody, and idk, in general I feel bad and like I don't want to be an active part of this world anymore, I just want to live in a bubble all by myself with no one paying attention to me
Sometimes that's needed. Just remember to be nice to yourself. Something as small as making your bed in the morning is a goal :) and doing small things like that in the morning can also boost your confidence for the rest of the day.
Not good. I'm losing patience by the second
A little stressed. School is about to end and I’m stuck on math. I hope I can finish that class before it’s too late.
sad and lonely today... tired too...
Alright, a bit stressed and tired, but nothing serious yet
Depressed, stressed, and I need rest.
Doin fine, I’m at school and waitin for my geometry teach to come in.
I'm in school, bored, and annoyed because I'm in my least favorite class. At least lunch is next
Tired
Today was a wild day at school. My eye somehow got hit by a ball from the back, another ball someone got stuck on the ceiling, and one of my classmates taped the whole class