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[deleted]

2 for me Social anxiety everytime. And now face to face classes will be back soon in my country and I'm a nervous wreck. I lived so sheltered. I never even knew how to commute in my country (we have different commuting service here: jeepneys), I don't know how to order food outside. And I'm never good at making friends so I'll end up lonely again for the whole year. And even if I did get friends, once I open up to them, it's over. This is how I get shunned. Specially as a boy with SA, can't be sad gotta be manly. I can't even manage it, how tf am i gonna grow up proper. Can't believe I'm getting emotional for a single post.


LordZeus2008

I don't really know much about the world, but I know that things can be better. Do you have parents to tell this? Maybe you can get a therapist, or maybe you can try making friends at school by finding a common interest with someone. Maybe you are working on a project with someone and you can talk to them. I really hope you get better, and yeah, you can make it better.


[deleted]

Well can I offer a helping hand it might not be enough but it could help... what do you say?


[deleted]

Sure


CompleteBias

for the last 15 years i have separated myself from humanity. a certain type of quarantine i suppose. i hate people so much i have to keep myself away from them at all times. so you are doing better than i am. don't end up like me. a stupid ghost hiding at the edge of society. i know what you are going through because i have had the same problems. look to me as a warning about what could happen. an advisory.


CompleteBias

i have the kind of the same thing you are posting about but with a lot more hatred. after my granddad passed i had to look after my nanna. i had to make certain sacrifices. mostly i had to stop taking my antipsychotics. they made me sleep too much and made it feel like i was trying to think through cotton wool. she got cardiovascular dementia and lost the use of her legs. i was needed to carry her when she needed to go out and i spent as much time as i could with her. she died a couple of years ago. i have not recovered and i do not think i will. specially because she died because she was dropped on the operating table by our nhs 'heroes'. so to me you sound like a good version of me. i don't want to say i understand. i want to say you are not the only one like you.


WeaselBeagle

It’s 2am for me but I couldn’t care less if this can help you. Also, I’m incredibly sorry if I made any grammar errors, as I am very tired. I was the same at the start of grade 7. I have an abusive brother and had just been feeling like everything was collapsing around me. Communication was nonexistent outside of my friend group, I would sometimes think about how death didn’t seem half bad, and I kept making promises I couldn’t keep. I would pull all nighters, go to sleep at 1-4am, and internally break down in the middle of the day, sometimes collapsing with no sense of orientation, or dropping something and completely blanking out while working in class. My sister is also depressed and is definitely showing signs of being an abuse victim. Only reason I had friends is that some extroverts wanted to give me a chance and some people I knew beforehand were in my classes. The worst part was that I covered everything up, masked it all. It all changed during Christmas. I was at my family’s annual Christmas party, and all my cousins and I were laughing, having a good time, and I had a fair amount of alcohol. It was amazing. A that’s when it clicked. As long as we were mutually having fun, nobody gave a shit about you. I was always so damn self conscious, setting my school laptop background to black so I could see my reflection. At those few hours, nothing really mattered. I felt the same thing 2 days ago at the dance floor of one of my cousin’s weddings. Also had a fair bit of alcohol there, but that’s besides the point. Also a few days before the Christmas party, I was designing weapons. In November, I found that I had a love for rockets, chemistry, space, and weaponry. That weapon I designed was a spark for me. When I designed it, I felt passion, felt carefree. I kept designing more and more, and now I have made myself not a depressed suicidal lowlife, but an aspiring like-able person, just by striving to be myself. I found a passion. A love. I quit self harming, decided to pursue my passion and act less shy/vulnerable around people. I had also come to accept death. When death is inevitable and you make peace with that, new possibilities open up in life, at least for me. I want to have an impact in this world, that’s another reason why I’m pursuing my hobbies. Another help is anime, funnily enough. Shows and movies such as Your Lie in April, A Silent Voice, Blue Period, and more helped pull me out of my sinkhole. They helped me discover more about myself and the world around me. This has just been a whole mess of advice and stories, but to summarize the stories, if you find a passion, a thing to strive for, a hobby that gives you happiness, pursue it. Also, act like what you want to see yourself as, as any half decent person wouldn’t give a shit. I know this firsthand (kind of, I never opened up to friends, only strangers on the internet) Oh, another thing, it also helps to open up to strangers on the internet. Many people from different backgrounds have helped me in different ways. Some give me advice, and some just make me happy. One stranger actually helped me a great deal as they helped me make peace with the fact that I was once a bully, as it was in the past, and although you can’t change the past, you can’t try to make a beautiful future. Sorry if this is a bit long, so I’ll end it here. Hope this helped.


Strife_o

"He is a little confused but he's got the spirit"


SuperCoIlider

There are numbers on the side


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JunketMan

Thats where Im at too Not good, but not that bad either


Used_Title_4095

Same


Drag00ned

same


TuxTues3

Same


Brilliant-Derp-6653

Same


JikanKaen

same


CricketLimb

Same


[deleted]

Nature is just nature. Not beautiful, not ugly


JaydenJJB74

💚


TheMahoganyTree8

💚


The_one_Guys

💚


Minx2011

💚


MEOWTheKitty18

💚


PikaTrev3910

💚


TheDrifter8533

💚


StarCaptain7733

💚


[deleted]

[удалено]


desireeevergreen

💚


SweetActual

10 now that you're here :) How bout' you?


imbadatnaming_idk

probably a 4. I was feeling terrible for the 5-6 days but I am a day or 2 from completely fine again.


TreesOne

Sorry to hear that, but good to hear you’re feeing better!


WhyYouRaping

-1 (dead)


JustMiniBanana_2

-3 (DooM guy)


TheAllPurposePopo

-4 CooM guy


Master_Cheif_2507

-5 cuuM guy


TheKomastar

-11 DooM guy, but deeper


[deleted]

0 (dying)


[deleted]

🗿 (I am currently wanted for 16 accounts of terrorism in Bosnia)


SuctionBucket5

🪬i nuked Venezuela


Bubblegumandswagger

I made Yugoslavia disappear


[deleted]

✡️ I know exactly what you’re thinking


swiggidyswooner

No you’re thinking of ☯️, ✡️ means you have a space laser.


REAPER-058_

☢️I nuked the french


Uniqueness2

*Frxnch


xXSpg101Xx

Good job


-ThunderMemelord-

Oh, so it was you who nuked near where I live…..


InwardNebula62

☢️ (I am wanted for the destruction of a nuclear power plant and stealing a nuke)


They-said-name

The council has decided you may commit one warcrime today


The-Booty_Warrior

Stalker


hateisrealgaming

i am currently wanted for 5 counts of domestic terrorism in france, 7 counts of stealing a nuclear weapon, 2 counts of unlawful possesion of a chemical weapon, and 12 counts of breaking the 1977 geneva convention in the middle east


[deleted]

i forced random people to watch a cringy tiktok


ASheetOfBlanket

holy shit what a monster


thePsychoKid_297

Amateur.


Thecatwhoisfat

🧿 i stole from bill gates


grimgrum420

☣️(I am wanted for dumping 3 tons of extremely radioactive waste under my neighbors house)


Repulsive-Result-302

I am wanted in all 22 member countries in the Arab League for a reverse 9/11 in Riyadh


Yoohoi

Same, only 90s kids can relate.


thePsychoKid_297

I'm wanted for harboring an alien in my shed and making bootleg ethanol to mix into gasoline.


doggy0524

Great to see you are in a 10 out of 10 mood


[deleted]

💛pee


fl00r_gang_yeah

Username checks out?


[deleted]

💛balls


fl00r_gang_yeah

Pee is stored in the balls


[deleted]

💛cum stored in balls


[deleted]

💛cum is stored in pee


[deleted]

ok u win 💛


[deleted]

💛💛💛


[deleted]

💛pee is stored in the pee


BackJustus

u/kurt_kobain_rip doing heroes work right here


Kurt_Kobain_rip

Just doing my small part to help people out :)


Gorgest_boi

I know there are good intentions there, but i think that copying and pasting the same comment not only make it feels really fake, but it can also be annoying I know you're trying to do some good but sometimes there are people who's things are not gonna get better, and who are actually not loved, there's a lot of love in this world but there's also a lot of hate. I just don't think that telling people possible lies to make them feel good is going to do something. But again, i know you have good intentions


Kurt_Kobain_rip

Yes in retrospect that was not the best idea, ill be sure to not copy and paste in the future thanks for bringing that up, i was just trying to reach out to as many people as possible because there a LOT of comments. I was trying help as many people as i could. Thank you for bringing this to my attention.


Gorgest_boi

Honestly i know there are good intentions there but he copied and pasted the same comment so many times that not only it feels so fake, it also feels kinda annoying


ImSiLeNt1

I hate my life rn because some fucking mosquito is somewhere in my room, can't find it, can't sleep, it's 4 am my parents are screaming at me to go to sleep meanwhile I'm here with flyinginsectophobia or whatever. cheers


ColumbiaRiverMobile

Thanks for the laugh 😂 I needed that


TheRealDurken

I don't think it was a joke. I think they actually have an insect phobia and can't sleep.


KortsA04

7-8


fr_imcrazy4u

💜 lean


[deleted]

\#ILOVELEAN💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜


fr_imcrazy4u

#ME TOOOO💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜


[deleted]

# LETS GOOOOOOOO 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜


mcbirbo343

#I TOO LOVE LEAN 💜🤦🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️😈🍆🦄👿👾🙋🏼‍♀️💁🏼‍♀️🙆🏼‍♀️✝️🍇💟☂️♒️☦️♊️☔️🤰🏼♐️☯️♈️☮️🌂🔯🧘‍♀️👩🏼‍🎤🙇🏼‍♀️🕎♓️♌️♑️♉️🟪🟣🆔🚺⛎♍️🪁🧕🏼⚛️♏️♎️♋️🧞✡️☸️🕉🛐🙍🏼‍♀️☪️🙎🏼‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧏‍♀️🍠👩‍🦯💆🏼‍♀️🙅🏼‍♀️👩🏿‍🦽👩‍🦼💇🏼‍♀️


[deleted]

I have never seen so much religious emojis used in one sentance


koolboi68

You mean so many religious emojis. Common grammar mistake.. anywho I'ma go eat Doritos and moderate discord


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fr_imcrazy4u

Still worth it


XenoKenji

The only one true answer


fr_imcrazy4u

Agreed, lean is love, lean is life


[deleted]

11


IdontEatdogsAtnight

Hell yeah


hoopymoopydoo29

W bro


Elcorgi8267

3 and 2


Kurt_Kobain_rip

Are you ok? You are loved and im sure that even though things might be bad now they will get better❤️. If you are feeling suicidal please call 800-273-8255 (suicide prevention hotline). Much love, stay safe.


Elcorgi8267

I’m fine for the most part, just to lazy to kill myself and have zero irl friends


Kurt_Kobain_rip

Lol i get the no irl friends part, now that summer started i feel kinda lonley


Elcorgi8267

well the real problem is that I moved away from my best friend and since may 9th I’ve had Zero irl friends I’m lonely and probably too depressed to kill myself


REAPER-058_

Do you atleast still talk to your best friend?


Elcorgi8267

Every now and then, but he gets grounded all the time so I have no idea when I can talk to him. Wish that dumbass would grow up and stop getting grounded


Eternal_Flame24

If you want to chat I'm here, just DM me


Piggy0821

You can always talk to me. Feel free to DM me. c:


WaitAminutedood

You are 13 my man. Give it some time. Things will get better don’t give up just yet and please don’t be afraid to ask for help. The suicide hotline number is 800-273-8255. Please call that if you ever feel the need too


Elcorgi8267

oh trust me I won’t kill myself, too much stuff is holding me back. I’m just overly lonely, and I can’t get any friends.


flufyanal

10 !


c-tetreault_7

wow, 3628800?? that’s amazing, so great for you!


Choice_Coach_4068

r/unexpectedfactorial


hiccupboltHP

*oh no it’s you again, your name haunts me in my sleep*


flufyanal

im glad


[deleted]

Excuse me flufy anal?!?!?


L3VT_YT

No way you’re satisfied with life anal


TheDrDoofenschmirtz

r/rimjobsteve


Euphoric_Owl152

🧡


MrPenguinMafia

Hope life gets better


worcestirshiresos

Same rn


Pee_onthedog

🍞bread👍


batmanhen1812

Bread 👍


[deleted]

Bread 👍


[deleted]

🍞 Bread 👍


Mythic2408

🍞🍞 Bread 👍🍞🍞


[deleted]

I used to be 1 waiting for 0… thank you for helping bring me back up everyone


Negro_Judio

maybe you hate the u, bit I think u are worth it. Please, if you don't have anyone to reach out confortably about this, DM me or anyone offering help in this thread. And it's not a suggestion, it's an order. You csn get to feel at least a 4 and I would bet an 8, but thw first thing that you need to know is to reach someone to change it. I don't know if this helps in any way, but my sister tried to commit suicide 6 months ago and now she is so happy that I tear up just from thinking about that. You are not alone, and you can reach me.


[deleted]

Thank you for the support. I have been feeling better recently and I will reach out if anything bad happens. Thank you.


Negro_Judio

I'm glad that you are feeling better but you are not good if you jsmust said 1 or 2. Reach for someone please, it can get worse and it can make it really complicated to get out.


BlazingDemon69420


lmao_man_funny

bro the replying with "are you good?" xd i just get the feeling that youre *not* good... anyway i hope shit works out for you, i've been there and it's not fun, but just make sure that whenever you have urges to do anything serious, make sure to go and do something you like, or go for a walk to clear your mind. I know the walk thing sounds stupid, but it's scientifically proven to make you feel better. Good luck, and hopefully the world is kinder to you in the near future.


aust1967

You good?


BlazingDemon69420

Never been worse


NltndRngd

We're strangers to each other. But I want to help you. What's going on? Reach out.


aust1967

You want to talk about it or you good


[deleted]

Relatable


thatgamersnake

Hey, man. I just want to let you know that no matter how bad a storm is, no matter how many there will be, there will be a rainbow. So please, keep on going. If you ever wanna talk, I'm here. :)


pencil_case23

same dude


SuctionBucket5

You alright, bro?


Lazyy07

Same, my parents are trying to send me to intensive care :/


Average_Boi_4879

U okay bro


LEFTNIPLEOFGOD

❌ my friend and dog died last week on the same day


Lodjuplo

Losing someone is harsh, but everyone can beat it, even you. Try looking for people with similar experiences in some subreddits, there's lot of people who've suffered losses and are willing to help a pal


LEFTNIPLEOFGOD

Thanks I really needed that


hecklng

That’s absolutely heartbreaking. I remember the day after I found out my dog had congestive heart failure, three friends were in a fatal car crash. One died instantly, the back passenger was left wheelchair-bound for a year, and the driver was put in a coma for a month. I was your age, too. I'd dealt with loss before, but never in such quick succession. It truly compounds the pain to an unbearable extent. Still hurts me to hear about someone going through similar. Now I know it's trite, but please remember that you're never alone in this life. Echoing u/ Lodjuplo in recommending that you seek out loss support groups, either online or irl (if available). Take care my friend.


LEFTNIPLEOFGOD

You were one of the single-handedly nicest people I’ve ever met thank you for taking your time to help me


Ok-Plan6054

Either 2 or 1


Breezybunnzy

im sorry :[ i hope you feel better soon


slovinske

get well soon


TheKomastar

If you need someone to talk to I've gotchu bro❤


Kurt_Kobain_rip

Are you ok? You are loved and im sure that even though things might be bad now they will get better❤️. If you are feeling suicidal please call 800-273-8255 (suicide prevention hotline). Much love, stay safe.


[deleted]

8


Gavapants

6 :D


Sloppy_mc_Floppy

8, you might remember me from last time, my father passed and I had finals. I have moved on and held my head up high ever since. I have hooked up with a girl and passed with high A’s. Thanks to everyone for your support and concerns!


xX_m1L3s_Xx

❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌❌


UncomfyUnicorn

❤️ For once, today wasn’t so bad! I haven’t had any mental breakdowns!


SuctionBucket5

Dope! Keep it up man


Umba5308

1 cuz my heart is shaped like an X, I seek medical attention asap my heat is shaped like a fucking X aaaaaaaa


Final-Dig709

you know it’s gotten bad when you giggle at “suicide watch” when it’s completely unironic


Gay11111111111

2 Emotionally abusive and manipulative (self admitted, repeatedly over and over, right before swearing she would change and she felt awful about it) ex girlfriend is now pregnant, grandfather just died, course registration for my first year of college got all fucked up so i got none of the classes i wanted. Edit: only reason its not 1 is because i have to be around for my future child and i will be an amazing father no matter what happens between me and my ex Anyone reading this please give me a quick prayer that i can achieve my dream of making it as an artist and provide for my future child without having to give up on being an artist. If i must, i will but i really really dont want to.


Idk_PAPAS

Between 2 and 1


EcoiiXD

Hey. By the way, you’re really, REALLY not alone. I’ve had times where I was feeling just like you. I’ve had your experiences, and so have many others. Stay strong. You will get over this. Know it’s just a rough patch in life and eventually, if you wait out the storm, you’ll come out the other end. There’s always a light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve felt useless several times in my life, and frankly, we all have. But YOU, yes YOU have a talent, you’re worth everything to someone, you’re worth everything to your family, you’re worth everything to whoever is special and supportive to you. Best of luck, from a guy with similar experiences. I love you ❤️


[deleted]

🖤


ItzCrystalFlame

Hey, I hope you’re doing alright. If you need anyone to talk to feel free to reply or hit me up in DM’s. I’m also not in the best place of my life right now and I empathize with you, no matter what it may be.


[deleted]

Suffering from fake friends and these motherfuckers showed their face at worse time, now I am stuck with a question about my future, my future depends on it, it feels like all bad luck is transferred to me.


[deleted]

I'll be your friend :)


ItzCrystalFlame

Oh, I totally understand fake friends. I just got out of a situation of those and now I have nobody, which really really hurts. They really remind me of parasites that suck away at you until they get what they want. I know it’s probably horrible what they did to you, and people like them will not survive well in the world. people like you, on the other hand, you’re stronger than them, and there are people who care about you, even if they’re just strangers on reddit. For the question thing, I don’t know how long you have to make the decision, but go with whatever your gut says. If you don’t know what you want, then I would recommend asking some other people how they would make the decision. For me, that usually tells me which one I want more subconsciously even if I told someone else to choose for me if that makes any sense. (If you’re comfortable, I could always give you my opinion, but only if you want to share.) I REALLy understand how horrible it feels when you feel so unlucky. Know that it’s not your fault, and these fake friends will get what they deserve later on it life. Either way, there are SO many people out here on Reddit who will support you. We care about you, even if you’re a stranger to us. If you ever need anything I’ll probably be here. I hope this helped you at least a bit.


acowhasmyphone

Between 4 and 5. Life is nothing but a routine and I am fed up of this fucking shit and the worst part is I don't even feel many emotions throughout a day


SnooCapers645

Bro it seriously sucks when your life turns into a routine you don't like


Gorgest_boi

The emptiness of the neverending routine will eat everyone sooner or later


shadowwatchers

This sounds a lot like disassociation, I recommend you look into it


Megasquash

10 🙌


[deleted]

4


-AdolfCritler-

3


fortnitex3

2


_Sadasivan_MJ_

What's the prob bro?


Kurt_Kobain_rip

Are you ok? You are loved and im sure that even though things might be bad now they will get better❤️. If you are feeling suicidal please call 800-273-8255 (suicide prevention hotline). Much love, stay safe.


lmao_man_funny

suicide prevention hotlines can vary country to country, so be careful with giving people numbers ​ Edit, i just noticed ur copy-pasting the message to multiple people, doesnt really do much...


Kurt_Kobain_rip

Sorry didnt think of that, also how much can i really change the message, thats exactlly what i mean to say


Bluegill15

DM the message instead. It loses meaning when it’s pasted verbatim all over a single comment page.


Kurt_Kobain_rip

Thats a great idea, ill be sure to implement that next time


hecklng

s’all good man?


fortnitex3

u made it a 10


[deleted]

[удалено]


[deleted]

Have a cookie goober 🍪🥛


[deleted]

Thanks


[deleted]

Even if you don’t want help, a cookie is always nice 👍


Due_Log5606

go get some tacos and go to the park to eat them it helps


commanderfox89

Then good luck and hope things get better for you


[deleted]

dude, you're 15, I don't care what you say, keep moving, do it for the people who love you, do it for me, I believe that you can do this, you only live once, you have gotten the greatest gift you could recieve, don't waste this, and promise me that when you're a grandad, you will tell your grandchildren the story of how this comment (hopefully) changed your mind


Electronic_Course_37

Jarvis I’m low on karma


aust1967

Here a cake I don’t need it.🍰


[deleted]

🤍


Clanka_Fucker69420

I am somehow both a 2 and a 5.


sfier4

somehow 9 for like the first time ever!!???!!! (just went off my ssri’s bc i’m 7 months into transition and finally starting to see the light 😇✨)


ThrowRasayde

About a 2


Aestheticlays

Saw your other post sending a virtual hug❤️


-Sarah_smiles-

2 My parents are getting divorced and they won't talk to anyone about it. And my siblings are blaming me for the divorce.


WatermelonShitter

2


_Sadasivan_MJ_

What happened buddy?


DaRealCrazyPyro

I'm so depressed I don't want to do anything, I feel you


Kurt_Kobain_rip

Are you ok? You are loved and im sure that even though things might be bad now they will get better❤️. If you are feeling suicidal please call 800-273-8255 (suicide prevention hotline). Much love, stay safe.


WatermelonShitter

Nah I just am numb af


ZeldaGamer2005

Jarvis I’m low on karma moment