No, that's just a me problem, my simultaneous superiority and inferiority complexes have driven me to a state where the perception of the superiority of another, or more accurately, the popular perception of one who I perceived as lesser to myself in some capacity being recognized higher than me, is enough to drive me to a deep sense of envy and dpite

so long ur better than others ur doing something right

r u gonna tell us that we need to practice self destruction mr fight club

The voices in my head tells me yes.

so real start smoking crack become homeless live under bridge

Being better than others is an advantage so why not shoot for that? If you say try your best then you will subconsciously do worse than your best.